mental restore

So i am currently trying to restore an iphone's software in order to restore a backup file back onto it. as if nothing happened.

If you are not familiar with itunes, ipods, and iphones, then you have no idea what i am talkin about. and that is ok, here is a quick lesson. Restore on an mp3 device such as an ipod or iphone means that all settings and media memory are erased and set back to factory settings. as if you hadnt changed the phone at all.

It all began with the movie "push" There is a lady who can see your intentions and can see what you are planning to do. To avoid being "found out" by this lady, the brilliant star boy of this film decides to write notes and then have everyones memory erased of the plan and prepartation of their plan to become the heros. ever since i watched that movie, i had thought about how cool it would be to erase a certain memory, or months of memory for that matter. how ingnorantly blissful i would be! So i am currently trying to restore an iphone's software in order to restore a backup file back onto it. as if nothing happened.

If you are not familiar with itunes, ipods, and iphones, then you have no idea what i am talkin about. and that is ok, here is a quick lesson. Restore on an mp3 device such as an ipod or iphone means that all settings and media memory are erased and set back to factory settings. as if you hadnt changed the phone at all.

It all began with the movie "push" There is a lady who can see your intentions and can see what you are planning to do. To avoid being "found out" by this lady, the brilliant star boy of this film decides to write notes and then have everyones memory erased of the plan and prepartation of their plan to become the heros. ever since i watched that movie, i had thought about how cool it would be to erase a certain memory, or months of memory for that matter. how ingnorantly blissful i would be!

so then, in the present as i am. I am restoring an iphone and the same thought appears. my grandpa kearl died a few hours ago, and i had my heart broken and its still bleeding from months ago. how nice would that be?

I think back febuary of this year. how happy i was. I wished that i could restore my mind to that day as if the last 8-9 had not happened at all.

usually i am not content with having regret. but i would have to say that i think i have regret, and i would be ok not having the last 9 months of my life back, minus today. i am glad i got to see my grandpa, and i guess minus the last week. although i am fucking up again i still am glad i was able to talk to my grandpa and hear him say goodbye and hear him say i love you too. today was a day. a day that you never forget but i might because my coping methods are not healthy.